It's Been A While

It's Been A While....

...since I posted here. There's so much to say and then again, not much to say. Back at school and not liking it. I really need a life/career change. I suppose I could analyze all of this but the thing is, I just feel stagnant. Nothing's working.

I'm worried about my health. I am having trouble breathing and feeling chest flutters. But I've felt the chest flutters for a very long time now and so far it's been nothing. The breathing thing? Well, I've been really, really stressed about it until today when I discovered by accident that when I take a Benadryl, the breathing problems disappear. So it looks as though I'm allergic to something, which is a relief. But I about gave myself a heart attack a few minutes ago when I was secretly checking out Hannah's blog and she started stomping up here. Holy shit! What if she caught me? Not that I would ever comment on her blog or stop her from using it but she would absolutely feel betrayed if she knew I read it. I just want to know what's going on in her head. She doesn't share much around the house, probably as a defense mechanism because her dad and I like to tease her. But I know she's a good girl overall. Anyway, my heart seriously started pounding and I almost couldn't click off the blog! Would've served me right, though, huh?

I've only finished 3 books so far this year. The one I'm reading now is such a doorstopper that it may be another month before it's done. I'm trying not to stress about that but it's hard. I want a quantity of books!

Rudi the wonder cat is at the top of this page! My kitty will be 20 this year! I worry about her constantly because while she seems to be perking right along, I know cats don't normally live this long. I realize how blessed I am but it's really worrisome. But she's my buddy who sleeps by me (and sometimes on me) and the "person" in the house I get up for to feed in the middle of the night.

I'm not sure what I need right now but maybe I should go looking for it rather than sitting here.

T~